The Holy Spirit Moving

As I sit here in the silence of the day, replaying in my head what the day brought. The struggles, the pain, the laughter, the joy, it all brought me to my knees. Sitting in the presence of God has got to be the best thing I can and ever will do, but I find myself not doing it enough. I find myself making myself so busy with stupid little things, that I forget about my Savior sometimes. There, I said it. I'm human, and I forget about the one who saved my soul. Not only do I forget about Him and His goodness, I forget about the people around me. The people God has clearly placed in my life to reach out to, to lend a hand, to talk to about Him.

I have been going through the book of Acts in my personal study time, and it has seriously changed my life. I have gone deeper in the word then I ever have, and I know God wanted me to go through this book before YWAM, that is for sure. It talks all about the Holy Spirit, and being bold for Christ. I have had such an issue doing this in the past, and I feel as if God is really showing me how to step out of my comfort zone, and how much He is able to move there. At church this week, we talked about the paralytic man who was brought to Jesus through the roof, and He had his sins forgiven, and he was healed. What I have never really paid much attention to in this story was how God forgave his sins FIRST, and then worked on healing him. I look at that, and then look at my walk with Christ. How, He first forgave me for all the junk in my life, all that sin, and then worked on healing me. Healing can be instantaneous, or it can be a process, and for me it has been a process. A process of tears, many struggles, but also a lot of joy. He has taken this heart I have, broken it to pieces, and helped me pick them all up and start fresh. HE IS SO GOOD to us, and we don't deserve it at all. What we don't understand a lot of the time is that we can't EARN God's love and forgiveness no matter how hard we try. We are ALL like the paralytic man. He physically could not do anything to earn Jesus' love, but yet the faith of his friends healed him. The man couldn't earn money to give to the church, he couldn't do anything but lay there. We all that exact same way before Christ comes into our lives. Before someone introduced us to this man Jesus, we were paralyzed. We don't do the things we do as Christians to earn Gods love, but to show people Jesus, and to serve. I get this mixed up in so many ways. We think we have to bring people to church to show them Jesus, but just inviting them into our lives, to share our lives with them, to love them, shows more of who Jesus was then inviting them to church. Inviting someone to church is all good, but what Jesus did was hang out with the sinners. He found the most broken, furthest from God and chose them. Isn't our God SO GOOD?

So I challenge you, I challenge myself. Step out of your comfort zone. Hang out with the people that are looked down upon. Be a light in the world where you are at, and where you are going. I know Jesus wants to show up in big ways, only if we let Him. This is such a struggle in my life, and I feel like it will continue to be, but I am choosing from this day forward to surrender EVERYTHING I am over to Him, and let His Spirit guide my every step.